June 11, 2015
Whoa what, a new journal? Yes mam', I'm still here. Albeit very busy! Still doing art, but I'm keeping most of it to myself for personal reference. Hope you all understand. I wish I wasn't so casual about my art, but life catches up to you. *Feels old* Oh well.
I miss using these journals for highly philosophical and inquisitive discussions, even if they're just with myself. We shall do more.
Recently, in my immediate life, I have been nurturing a baby robin egg. I might not be successful in bringing it to hatching but she's always worth a shot. Also, I saved a 2 foot long snapping turtle (her tail was bigger then my hand). She had cracks on her shell, but no worries, they were healed from old wounds, and she was much happier in the pond then my front yard. Turtles are some of my favorite animals. (Fun fact, she moved about 20 feet in under 5 minutes! She even jumped into my flower bed about 5 inches up; she was obviously really anxious to get away from me.) But she had a happy ending! I'm use to saving frogs from my property (I just give them a ride to an appropriate pond), but relocating a turtle is a first. She was a common snapping turtle
if you want to google it. They only come out of water to lay eggs, so she was looking for a nesting spot.
Anyway, back to my thoughts on how our intuition guides us.. this might be some heavy stuff, though. More intellectual then personal. But I like exploring new ideas.
Arbitrary - based on random choice, undefined. Little reason or intent behind it.
Intuition - the ability to understand something, without immediate reasoning.
Intuition is a strange thing, it's that feeling you get in your gut when something is about to happen. That 'anxiety' before a speech may be a lesser form of it, because those feelings are more ego and internal then they are external. What I'm referring to is a bit more complicated then nerves.
Philosophers might refer to a phenomenal realm
, which is essentially a place outside of our physical (nominal) realm. It can rule language, feelings, and [if your into that kind of thing] spiritual essences and belief.
But I digress, I'm more curious as to what causes us to make decisions. What causes us to finally make a change, is it intuition, that gut feeling, or is it reasoning?
Maybe it's a little bit of both. I see intuition as the subjects and reasoning as the ruler. A good ruler, or sometimes called a sovereign
, will make final decisions for the people, or the subjects. The sovereign is the one who listens to the wants and then carries out the best decision for them. If you've ever heard of utilitarianism
, its classically refereed to as maximizing pleasure and minimizing pain for the most people. So what the intuition wants, it tells the reasoning, and that is how an opinion is formed. Opinions, create action.
I often wonder, however, why my reasoning is so different from my intuition. There's what I want, and then what I need. They're like two sides of the same coin, part of the same piece, but opposites. That's probably the appealing factor of it. When we don't know what to do it may be because our needs and wants are in conflict, that's when we take a step back and deliberate between the two, like a negotiation between a government and it's people. But like the latter, there's never smooth sailing between the two bodies. They are like water and fire, they create a lot of useless steam.
I guess conflicting wants and needs are what keep life interesting and what helps us grow. For better and for worse.
Change is a good thing, and they say that only through struggle can you finally come to a realization of the right path to choose. Sometimes, however, that choice can take a very, very long time to finalize. And that's okay! At the end of the day, it is your happiness that is more important.